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The Empress Suite

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1.
Make way for the Empress, she's closing in on me Nipping at the heels of the war that she secedes To haunt my favorite restaurants, ruin my favorite songs Kick her feet up, swearing she belongs I guess I'll slow my step now, let her take my hand Show me all the happiness that isn't in the plan Chat until she's sick of me and carries on her way Promises that she'll be back one day Paint every hearbroke fool black with your experience Cast a shadow across the shadows that I cast Commiserate with me and plan for something honest As if the view from heaven will last Depression is my Empress, I never knew her name Until she whispered in my ear that everything's the same Skated by on razor blades, spun a triple sol Blew a kiss, that's all she'd allow She manifests herself in everyone I know Quietly they let me down and I can't let it show If I force a smile, well, she's right there smiling less You'll never know me like the Empress A heartbroke fool black from wrestling the chimneysweep Who swears it's blocked and the exhaustion can't escape It helps to know you're out there somewhere doing worse than me Oh god I hope that that's the case Make way for the Empress closing in on me Nipping at the heels of the one that she succeeds Wish I had a million words to call you what you are The only friend I've had so far A spectre that won't leave me, a ghost besets my fun Never leaves me lonely in the times I come undone Nothing is more comforting than her plague of embrace The Empress keeps me in my place Another heartbroke sweet apologist you've painted Another ebb is on the way Another text for help deleted before I sent it Another wink, another day
2.
The fame you find in your mind should keep you well and disinclined Bend your will and take your pill Don't believe the dirty truths I weave I'm just a foe you never got to know Bend your will and take your pill
3.
Well I think I'm doing better but the Empress don't agree The worse I do, the more she lives in me To implode each passing kindness, corrupt each passing grace Tolerance to pills grows commonplace I think I'm doing better but the Empress don't agree She's the one who passes the decrees To smile on allowance and laugh at my own risk Leave in the shadows of the sick Time will only tell, maybe if I get worse or well I think I'm doing better but the Empress don't agree Picking fights with actuality There's the folks who claim to love me, want to understand And yet they let the Empress take my hand Time will only tell, maybe if I get worse or well Then I understood The Empress is death The Empress is good She's made room for me To finally feel seen To finally feel free She's just out to conquer all she can She's got no end, she's got no plan When my pills run out There's nothing but her sarcastic pout, "Well I think I'm doing better"
4.
She skates the frozen lake of plans, pauses to make eye contact, and glides towards me. Gracefully she slows, doing her best not to smile. Reaches out, takes my hand. Skating backwards, pulls me carefully onto the ice. Your family won't even notice that you've gone Your enemies won't ever play your songs You're not leaving anyone but yourself behind So break on through with your heel Straight down into the lake of plans, the Empress is just circling the hole. Watching me claw for air. Your memory won't even last until July Your legacy of absent statistics doesn't lie You're not leaving anyone but yourself behind So push on down, breathe it in You're just frozen on the couch again The Empress in your skin
5.
V. True Rest 04:55
Afternoon or middle of the night You always find me contrite Fatigue in limbs and heart and mind Disenchanted, disinclined True rest you cruel evasive routine All I wanted was the energy to dream Half awake and half alive Disconnected to survive Each idea weight Soliloquies and rebuttals replayed A comedy of sinking skin Untethered muscle and chagrin True rest I feel you in my bones And welcome you to take me to my home Half alive and half asleep You leave me in the deep Let me self-deprecate and right a thousand wrongs In the time before the sunrise dawns Let me breath it out so I can breath in to the core Eleven becomes four Never gone and never here Relentless echo in the ear Another ice expanse profound But the Empress can't expound True rest you cruel evasive curse Ocean of salt for every desperate childish thirst Half invested and half dead Stuck here in this bed

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You're not leaving anyone but yourself behind.

"Overall, this shit slaps... As always, your art walks that polarity of the extremes, as most good art does."
-My Therapist

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released April 2, 2021

All songs written, performed and recorded in quarantine
by Jesse Giallombardo

Recorded at Housesitter Studios
Mixed and mastered by Doug Leinen
Illustration by Vivien Sárkány

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muh Chicago, Illinois

Jesse Giallombardo has been in lots of other musical projects. Some of them are called: The Paver, Old Youth, Killer Whale Party, Beard, Beat Drun Juel, The Medic, The Malcolm Effect, Northern Pike, The Promise of East, you get the idea.

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